February 2012
6 posts
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Hahaha yeah.. Just right when I developed feelings for you again.. I knew it never goes right.. Any one I ever liked.. It just goes all down hill… Hah, alteast I know early on unlike the rest.. Still, it hurts.. :.. I told myself I wouldn’t experience this again.. I am really hopeless after all.. I guess.. From this point on, I should pretty much say or consider my personal love...
Ugh.. This migraine is killing meee ;___;..
“Don’t over think things. In my experience, people who are absorbed in...”
– Shinobu
Yeah, I’m gonna be a kid in this post BTW. It annoys the fuck out of me (and I don’t get easily annoyed) when you can’t do something simple as letting me use your god damn web cam for like an hour or two.. I’ll return it and plug it back in. No problem right? No but you wouldn’t let me borrow that cause I wouldn’t bring you your ice cream cup that I TOOK OUT OF...
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Sadlife...
So I got enough sleep somehow and woke up at 4 AM.. Yes 4 Am.. Where no one is on to talk to.. And.. I don’t know how I passed the time but I did.. You know how sad is it to see the sun rise ? LOL ALONE TOO?! AND LETS NOT FORGET TO MENTION I HAD NOTHING BETTER TO DO.
Siigh… My life..
Fuck you
I don’t fucking understand why you want an Iphone 4S when you know we can’t afford to have a fucking data plan added to our phone bill. What the fuck… There is nothing wrong with the phone you have right now. The only problem is mom’s phone. Her is broken and has a legitimate reason to have it replace/get a new phone. You don’t. I don’t want to fucking pay 600...
January 2012
8 posts
Ah.. I think I’m probably hearing things.. I swear I thought someone’s voice talking to me.. But I couldn’t hear clearly.. It was just something.. @__@;;..
Ahhh… My back hurts and my shoulder hurts lately.. I’m getting old.. Oorrrrr I need to fix my sleeping position LOL..
@__@.. Man.. I haven’t been on here for a few days.. Bleh.. I have nothing productive to do with my last few days of break… Its depressing a bit cause I’m 90% of the time stuck at home.. Doing nothing productive..
Sometimes dreams are nice or scary. There was a scary dream I had two days ago.. For some reason it was me chasing a friend.. Then that friend turned to an alleyway for a short cut.. Suddenly that friend stopped and yelled “whoa!” and got shot in the head by a mysterious hooded person.. That friend’s body fell to the ground. I don’t know why I ran towards that mysterious...
Hmm.. You do have a good point.. I do spend a lot of my time worrying about others but I don’t really impose my own problems on anyone..
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Heh.. Its funny, listening to this song.. It brings me back to those days… Those days where I was really caught up in trying to get over you and not focus on other important things. I’m not so sure why I like you that much.. Even to this day! But its in the past. I mean its not like these memories hurts me anymore. Its just nostalgic thinking about those times. Ah high school.. What a...
I don't understand..
It seems to be that you don’t mind the attention of strangers or people you’re not well acquainted with.. However, to friends or people you know, you don’t really care that they pay attention to you. I don’t understand why you enjoy the attention or care of those kinds of people when there are other people that actually cares (or in your case no one. Since you don’t...
December 2011
7 posts
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I should stop.. Its not going to get me anywhere… And this never worked out for me in the beginning. Despite what my friend said today.. “Its because you give up”.. I wish I had a strong determination like you are.. Even though you know you’re chasing something impossible.. You knew he is unable be able to look at you.. And yet you still try..
Though its the same for me.....
“when what you want to do is what you have to do, you’ll hear the voice of...”
You always seem to stay in your own world, with many walls around you…
Why did I expect you to say a hello or hi to me.. I don’t know why it hurts that you didn’t say that to me or anything.. I was fine if we didn’t talk at all during the group hangout.. But still.. With something like that I would of been okay with it..
Sigh.. I’m such a pathetic guy.. Even after a couple years.. I’m bothered by something small like that..
Well I’m going to go on a tangent on a lot of things here but.. I guess I have to start somewhere with this post right? LOL…
Anyways, so.. I apologize for my stupid behavior and bothered you so much at that time.. I’m sorry that I said so many awkward things and basically made our well.. “Friendship” the way as it is right now.. Really distant.. And I don’t...
Alriiight.. Some people on facebook is ridiculous… I was randomly looking for a childhood friend of mine and suddenly stumble upon a person’s FB.. I look at their “Job” that they listed.. It said: “I don’t work. People work for me.”
I just don’t understand… I know people got some dreams (or some kind of boss/god complex.. Whatever it is) but...
Heh.. What a load of bullshit… Why would I even care or put effort into this ?
I really don’t know what you’re thinking… What you say contradict your own actions. What do you really want? Cause it seems to be you have too much high expectations for anyone.. You have to realize you’re going to have to work with whats here and now.. Even if you don’t want to...
November 2011
6 posts
I don’t know when I lost my motivation to all of things… It sucks because I know when I have to TRY really hard to accomplish my goals.. But.. For some reason.. Its just gone.. I guess its just my parent’s potential disappointment that is just driving me right now.. That alone isn’t sufficient.. I haven’t felt so… Bleh in a while… I’m not sure what...
どうすればいいでしょうか?…..
RAAAGEEEEE I want to eat hot foods but I can’t… Freaking wisdom teeth.. HEY GUMS, WANNA HEAL FASTER?! ;____;..
I have spent too much time searching for something.. Something in my life that will tell me or atleast let me know what to do with my own life. At the moment, I have no freaking clue what I want to do.. I don’t have much time left.. I don’t know what I was doing these past few years…
October 2011
16 posts
Sooo nervous for tomorrow.. UGawghawygawtfag.. No real food for about a week.. SAVE MEEEEE… ;___;..
Around this time… This is usually when I feel the most insecure.. It is when I have the most negative thoughts running through my mind about myself.. I often question my decisions about everything.. Looking back constantly.. And always being absorbed by.. “What-ifs” situations.. Even though I know for a fact that it isn’t good for me to do that.. I still can’t help...
I guess.. I depended on you so much.. Even though I shouldn’t in the first place.. This is.. Probably the stage in my life where.. I need to be even more independent.. It was nice while it lasted though! I’ll never forget! Those memories will be always with me.
Well.. For once in a while.. I’m actually looking forward to the weekends! Weee… Tomorrow I’m going to volunteer (Only possible cause my sister wants me to go with her) at Light the Night! Its a fun event for me only cause at night, when people start walking.. Its very beautiful with all those balloons flickering.
Nothing on Sunday.. Just… A regular day… Of doing...
You know what bothers me the most? After I shave.. I always assume that my chin is all smooth.. BUT NO.. SOME SPOTS STILL HAVE HAIR.. SIIGHH.. And then I have to go back to the bathroom take out my razor.. And shave… AGAIN.. Well in those certain spots.. BUT STILL… FSJauy8hfyaghweaBFgb DAGHHHHsagjguwaj
Why do I even care in the first place?
Mmm… I gotta… Try to put more effort into this or else it will be the end of me. (This will mean that my future plans will be… A little bit difficult to achieve)
What to do what to do…
Siigh.. Sooo tireedd..
Random musing
Another boring weekend.. Meh… There are something in life I’ll never ever be able to understand.. I guess… Thats just how it is.. No matter how much I try to understand… It just doesn’t work in the end.
theryanchung asked: I FINALLY FOUND YOUR TUMBLR. YES MISSION ACCOMPLISHED.
Its been 10 years since you moved away. Ever since you moved and we lost contact with each other.. To this day, I still hope that we will meet again. Even though I know those chances are slim.. I know you’re still out there in this world. If we ever meet, the first thing I want to tell you is that I miss you a lot. I would love to catch up with you but I fear that you may have forgotten me...
LOL… You know I decided to go to sleep earlier than usual. But guess what I end up doing? I ate food. Not sure when I’m gonna go to sleep but.. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.. WHY AM I EATING? LOLOL WTHFdjshqabqhe
LOLOLOL.. It is actually cuddle weather now that Lauren pointed that out. Except I’ll never have some to cuddle with!
If only I had more time.. No.. I shouldn’t be saying that.. Instead.. I should say, if only I used my time wisely. So many things I can do.. Yet I choose not to.. What am I doing? What do I want? Sigh… I don’t know if I’ll ever find the answers to these questions at all. I should also watch what I say.. And stop saying things on impulse.. There are somethings that...
Another restless and pointless night.
Hmm.. I really didn’t do anything productive today… It stinks.. I don’t know.. Felt like I could of done something better.. But… Eh…
I really look forward to nothing now and days.. Nothing exciting ever goes on.. My classes are a drag and really troublesome..
What do I want to do in life.. I wonder..
September 2011
5 posts
Bittersweet
Well.. Most of my friends are leaving to college tomorrow or the day after. Its.. All sooo strange.. You been with them for quite a while and for them to leave and such for college.. I mean its great that they are… But their departure is very bitter sweet. I don’t know.. I guess what added more to the bitter part was the fact I was never able to achieve what my goal since middle...
Heh..
My timing is always the greatest..
I’m always too late or late on everything..
I guess.. I was too scared to take the chance or risk.. Cause I am afraid of being in that situation again.. And again.. I don’t want to go back into that situation again..
I shouldn’t feel bitter about this because I really want you to be happy. I have to keep reminding myself that it doesn’t...
Geezz..
And lets not forget to mention that my Economics 2 class is the hardest class I ever took so far.. Like seriously.. The teacher does a GREAT job (no sarcasm) on making sure we understand the concept. HOWEVER… When its time to actually apply those concepts in math form.. He just throws us out there and expects us to somehow solve them.. Gaawd.. Freaking externalities.. MPC.. MSC.. And all of...
Honestly..
What am I doing? I haven’t done anything productive at all today.. I know I had something to do to make my day more productive but.. SIIGH.. Why do I choose to do nothing.. I think its the old high school habits.. I gotta break it or else this college schedule I’m trying to adjust to isn’t going to work out.. I already cut down on how much.. Video games I play a week or on a...
Damn..
This is just getting ridiculous.. College is pretty freaking lonely out here. Not used to seeing faces that are not happy but rather busy or worried.. Barely anyone over here is smiling. What the hell did I get myself into? I go to school everyday and there is nothing for me to look forward to.. Just to get my credits and go.. But.. The classes.. All of it so far have no sense of.. Better...
August 2011
5 posts
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The space between two worlds