It seems to be that you don’t mind the attention of strangers or people you’re not well acquainted with.. However, to friends or people you know, you don’t really care that they pay attention to you. I don’t understand why you enjoy the attention or care of those kinds of people when there are other people that actually cares (or in your case no one. Since you don’t trust people but you sometimes complain about not having some one to go to). I don’t blame you how you don’t trust people (I understand that people are such disguising at times and probably made you lose faith in them or perhaps humanity by now) but don’t keep a blind eye to people that really do care.

I understand that we’re all hypocrites in one way or another but this is just ridiculous.

As a friend that actually cares A LOT (You don’t know how many times I keep thinking about how much longer you’re going to continue to stay like this) it pains to see you like this. It hurts even more that I can’t do anything about it either. I really don’t mind listening to everything you have to say. If it makes you feel better, I don’t mind at all. Although don’t expect me to answer with something great. I know I’m not the best person to go to for comforting but I know I’m really good at listening. I already over extended my helping hand and I cannot force you to take any help.

I really don’t understand at all.. If you want me to understand by all means do explain. I have time! If for some reason I don’t have time. Don’t be afraid to drop me a message or something. I always get back to people ASAP (I sound like a total loser).